hey! i know i haven't posted anything in a while, but i've just been soooo busy. two weeks ago, james asked me to the prom. we're goin as friends, but i'm still glad that i got asked. i was beginning to think that i wasn't gonna get asked at all. when i mentioned to all my friends and some of the guys that i wanted to ask me, the all said the same thing, "i can't believe YOU don't have a date. you're so pretty......" like that makes me feel any better! but it'll be more fun goin with a friend. a just wish for one dance, i could get asked by a guy i like and things to work out. there are new transfers at my work from cali: michelle and anthony. i'm beginning to become really good friends with michelle and trying to work on things with anthony. last week when i was getting off work, he gave me his number. he told Les and Michelle that he likes me and wants to get to know me and he thinks i'm really cool. but he never calls. michelle said it's becuz he forgets. i hope that's it. i don't want to be wasting my time. he's really cute. mexican, tall, muscular, kinda skinny but not too skinny, smart, nice, he smokes pot (which is good and bad), and he's gonna be 21 next month! that's the only problem. i told my parents that he was gonna be 20 in a couple of months. but i think he could pull off 19... at least i hope he can. i'm really excited that this week is spring break. i needed this break soooo bad. i worked last night until midnight with anthony. he got some chronic. i don't know if i want to do it with him yet. i don't know him that well. i know that if he does drugs that i'm gonna get back into them, and that's why it's bad. but it's good becuz now i finally has someone to do them with.
i'm really kinda sad. i feel like i've lost all of my friends becuz of work. i was talking to my friend, tammy, from work and she feels the same way. like, all my friends went camping this week, and i wasn't even invited until the day of by james. no one ever calls me any more becuz everyone assumes that i'm working. the only friends i really have anymore are the ones that i work with. we go out after work and hang out and stuff, but i still miss my friends from school. becuz i've been so busy mike and i dont' even talk anymore. if i hadn't had spring break this week, i would probably have a nervous break down. last week i think i cried like four times and i get so depressed cuz i don't sleep, i'm constantly moving and working hard at everything and i feel like i have no friends. tawni, paul, and i were suppose to hang out on saturday and tuesday, but on saturday paul says he "forgot" and tuesday they "had other things that they had to do", but i feel like they just said that.

ok, last night i worked until about 10 or 10:30. after work, tawni, paul, and mike came over. we hung out at my house and watched movies. mike's heart was beating so fast. it was like a bunny's heart beat and he was shaking. i almost felt sorry for him. i don't understand why he would be so nervous. they left my house at around 2 this morning. i am so tired. but i was excited because he kissed me... only it wasn't that good. he was like all over the place, and i hate the smell of his cologne. so, for easter or something, i'm gonna buy him Tommy, cuz that's my favorite. and hopefully over the next few weeks, i can work on his kissing skills. Wednesday is Ash Wednesday and in church today we started talking about priorities, and where we are right now verses where we want/ should be. i feel like my life is overly hectic and i'm not where i want to be. i wish i had more time in the day, to do the things that i really want to do. i'm really sick, and i'm having asthma, but i still have to run track, i don't like my job but i still have to work. well, i'll write back in a few days. wish me luck on my track meet on wednesday!

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hey guys,
surry i haven't written in a while. i've been working a lot lately and track just started this week. right now i'm at tawni's cuz it's early release and it's pouring. Well, my boy life is doin great. i'm dating this wonderful guy that is actually the exact opposite of what i normally date. his name is make and he's just what i need right now. he doesn't drink, smoke, or do drugs like me and some of his friends do. as sad as this may sound, usually i do it because there isn't anyone or anything to tell me not to. but with him not doing it, i don't. but i'm also into this guy at school (mike goes to another school) and this guy at work. The guy at my school is a year younger than me, but we run track together and he's really awesome. the guy at work is 19, out of school, and really hot. we both like the same music and we want to date but right now our work won't allow us to. At the end of feb. he's moving in with his sister in missouri, but luckily he's moving back here to az in may.

hey guys,
i'm ambular. i'm sixteen. my birthday is on monday, so i'm really excited. currently i'm single, but alway open to knew people. i'm interested in a couple guys from work and a guy at school. i know a couple of the guys at work like me, but knowing my luck they'll be mean boys. don't take offense to the website name "mean boys". this doesn't mean i ablsolutely hate boys or i like gurls or anything, it's just an oppinion. one that has come from many bad relationships.